It's been so long since I updated my blog.

So much has happened since then... ORD, orientation, school, mid-terms and now recess week! I guess you were right, there's more things in life and we should really start moving on.

School's been fun, especially with the right clique of friends. Didn't get into the portfolio I wanted for WSC... which was really disappointing. Hall life isn't what I'm really comfortable with, they are really nice people but I just can't hang out with most of them, but I believe things are getting better.

I've been to the airport too often these days; sending so many friends off - my JC sister (Joyce:)), my great army buddies (Ian and QiaoYu), my high school bro (Chengan). Of course there are so many more who are going abroad to further studies- UK, US, Australia and even India (JonWan for his church mission!), so proud and envious of these people who have the courage/capability to study overseas because I've never felt comfortable going beyond my comfort zone (duh?)

I'm glad to have met XP before she left.

It just struck me during one of my send-offs for my friends. I hate farewells. Was I going to miss such a close friend for another 9 months without meeting her at all? I had my reservations at first but I eventually popped the question after much hesitation; and I'm glad I did. It was genuinely a happy feeling to be able to meet and catch up with such an old friend again. I don't know if she meant what she said, but I kind of feel the same. It is just so comfortable talking to her... and I really miss those days. It was kinda embarrassing getting emotional at the end (I had speech tutorial right after that) but I guess it pretty much summed up our love-hate relationship. Bittersweet in the end.

Truth to be told, I really still want you as a friend, especially after coming to Uni and realize that it is pretty difficult to even know someone you call a FRIEND, less say a close friend that you can rant, bitch and just talk to the entire day. But I'm really scared that I will fall back right into the hole I took so long to recover from. I'm scared that I can't treat you like a normal friend as much as I want to give you my blessings.

I think I'm really over it already, or am I?

I've met another girl whom I think I'm interested in. But is this just a rebound? Is it cos she's so similar to you in terms of traits and character? I really hope not.

And going to that topic, it feels like deja vu all over again. Going through the courting process and I've got a gut feel I'm gona get friend zoned again hahaha. Ok that's beside the point.

Whatever happens, I hope you are happier then who you were a year ago.

And for myself, I just want to study and get a good grade LOL. This relationship thing is getting abit old for me...and it's the least of my concern.

Oh pls. Who am I kidding.

And now, back to mugging malay. Whuttttt.