i realised i am spending too much time trying to write my commenwealth essay which requires 1200 words. and im running out of ideas, so i decided to give up cos i would end up wasting more time just to get 1 ace pt. lol.

life was great a few weeks back. when sch just started, liverpool was sitting comfortably at the top and i got an iPod=)

but now life sux. i see no motivation in doing things. everything that i want and wished for is failing. as if everyone and everthing is against me. i hate this.

why?

i think i nid another private blog to vent my probs and frustrations.

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tag replies
Freakben--: lol he's my classmate. dun be so crude leh=.=
YHK: oh okay sure. remind me. lol
zx: why should i care?
zhaoxun: heh. agreed =D

Labels: life, reflection, relationships

argh.

my keyboard is infested with ants. tried to clean it up, but only to find more dirt and dust. now i am convinced that the keyboard has more germs than a toilet bowl.

attempted to complete mrs seck's chem paper. fails la. forgot all my chem liao. didnt really had the mood to do it either.

slept at 10 yesterday and woke up at ard 9.30. 12 hrs of slp. zzzz

my sms totally exploded le.

i shall wash my hands off some commitments. i cant believe some ppl still think that they are the one who can change and lead us to greater heights. they are more likely to destory it. wats the point when they dun appreciate what i do? if they dun bother to tell me, i shant be bothered to go and find out either, in case they accuse me of poking into everything.

posted at 2.35PM
☺ Pissed
♫ The Serious World 2-4PM; Don & Drew

Labels: life, reflection, sjab

Morning world!

I don't know why am I always up so late this few days. Sleeping at around 2, 3AM in the morning, and still managed to wake up around 6 hours later, looking fresh and hopping. Oh well, finished muggin chemistry, up next PHYSICS and IHC.

Soul Calibur is getting better each time i play it. Crevates is crazy. So is Kilik. And we unlocked the apprentice. No the reality TV show, it is the guy who will be appearing on Star Wars Unleashed.

Another muggerish day for me! I must stop getting myself distracted from the comp. It sucks. Maybe what happened over the last few days wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. At least now, i have a clear mind to mug, and there's no need to brood and think about you =D

On a side note, I need someone desperately to share my woes. I am still quite lost over some things that have happened.

Looking at what happened in Term 3, I have one word to describe- Mayhem. From the physical and mental draining from nat comp, to the playing catch up in my studies, sleeping in chemistry class, SJAB POP, and relationships. Filled with ups and down. I am happy i survived it=D

So Term 4. EOYs. Mugger mode! I can imagine the amt of fun I'm gonna have after it =D movies, chalets, soccer, table tennis ^^

posted at 2.22AM
☺ Mugger
♫ Crush; David Archuleta

Labels: life, reflection

Went to school again for flag raising practice. It was pretty much okay. So no screw ups please. Went to play street soccer with kezheng, weichieh and some of the sec2s. 3 vs 6. Yea as in 3 sec3s vs 6 sec2s. Amazingly, we won 6-2. With me scoring one. And i love those through passes between me and weichieh. Nice 1-2 too. Guess they are just too noob in street soccer, so they went to play basketball instead. Damn I'm noob in basketball. Ohh well. It was quite fun though. With kezheng, chengen, weichin and bernard.

After that, me, kezheng and bernard went to return the soccer ball back to the sjab room. Wanted to go KAP, but no one wants. Oh well. Then me and bernard went home. He suggested going Serangoon Central to eat, and I was okay with it. Then when we were almost reaching Little India, I told him that there was a food court in KK hospital. Then he said "ok". And we alighted at KK Hospital, and went into their food court to have lunch. This must be the lamest thing i have done this year. Went KK just to eat lunch. But seriously speaking, their food ain't that bad. Especially the Unagi Bento Set. Went to buy Watermelon Soya Bean Milk at Mr Bean. Love it. KK hospital is actually quite a nice place to go, alot of things to eat. Right Bernard? haha. Then we met chengen at Little India and went home.

Can't believe what this person said to me today. Spilled the beans eh? You are such a hypocrite. Liar. 1 year together and this is what you do to me? I will never believe you again. I hate you :] But at least that made me realised some new friendships.

So,
So what I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin more fun
And now that were done
I'm gona show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

我们玩完了

☺ Heart-broken
♫ So what; Pink

Labels: reflection, relationships

Its the holidays! And I am going back to school everyday. Hurray!

Monday: Chem Test + Lesson
Tuesday: Accompany SJAB sec2s for Health and Science Olympiad
Wednesday: Flag raising training + movie outing(2)!
Thursday: Math Revision Lesson (1)
Friday: Math Revision Lesson (2)

I thought the chemistry test today was relatively easy, maybe can get my first chem A1 this year! I don't even know why am i even going tmr. I am not their PC, neither am I the training head. Oh well at least i can find some joy in it. Can't wait for wednesday! Whee then back to mugging for thursday and friday D:

Slept at 1 yesterday, after watching the liverpool-aston villa match, which ended in a 0-0 stalemate. Crap, torres is injured. And robbie keane should have had a penalty for the crazy tackle on him.

☺ busy
♫ Check Yes Juliet; We The Kings

Labels: reflection, school

Happy teachers' day!

Went back to mshs- maris stell high school. oh well its a primary school. ppl going back its getting lesser each year. 11 to be precise. There was the same old partick, ernest, joshua, shayne and bryan! our class isn't that bonded. Most probably because its all boys. And there were alot of differences between the class. nevertheless you people were still great. Rock on! And I found out that my sec1 St. John cadet Benjamin is also from mshs! This brings the number of people in hci*St.J from mshs to 3! Me, Bernard and Benjamin. Hope there is more in my future squad next year.

Walked home and checked my results. 2.75. Hmm, deproved, but nonetheless i am still quite contented. Especially when the first few weeks, when i was drained emotionally and physically from sjab.

As you would have probably noticed i have changed my blog url. It was rather difficult to part with a blog url that i have been with for the past 2 years. ky-bearbear was inspired during my sec1 years. When yangcheng for no specific reasons started calling me bearber. And slowly, that became my nick=D But now, ky-bearbear no more.

radiodaydream is actually the the name of blake lewis album. The original name was of course audio day dream. But i obviously changed it.

As for my skin. I have actually used the code of another blogskin, which i had copied from blogskins.com, refer to my credits. Then i edited many things, most notably the picture. The Script. A simply brilliant band!

After so much that have happened for the past few years, or more specifically the past few week, it has completely changed me. And here I am with a new outlook, a new life.

☺ inspired
♫ Getting by; Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Labels: reflection, school

no its not the korean guy.

its been raining for the past few days. non-stop. and it totally screwed up the agi rehearsel. and my poor sec2 cadets still have to march in the rain. thats life.

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Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I've been in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Whos waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.
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i am confused.

Labels: reflection